What Support???

As some would had noticed, over the last few days, I had been scrambling to clear the shit and obviously, it did not goes too well. And today, my boss send me a mail. 

"I am not impressed with the preparation and with so many defects not rectified...."

Wow... for the first time in my working career, my boss had been very critical towards my  performance. Indicating the flaws in my arrangement and resulted all these last minute arrangements. 

Let look back on 14 Sep, in order to ensure timely re-delivery of the vessels, me had clearly send out a mail to a fellow for HOTO purposes, indicating what needs to be done. Sadly, what I see on 22 Sep onboard, nothing is done. So I called my boss, asked him about who had taken care of this, what had been done ... or rather, why was it not done!!! "Explanation" from my boss.... basically, that fellow is "busy". Wonder what his definition of busy. Cos went through the vessel DPR, that fellow only stays onboard for 2 hours (1100hr to 1300hr). So where to hell he been to after that? He only flew there on Friday, but nothing was done on last two days???

For now, I am faulted for the ill preparation.. Guess this is the support they had preached all these while. Really really sianz liow!!!

Just a thing to add... he had also commented the way I managed my guys, feeling that I am too harsh and rigid. I should change it in order to make them work, since they determine my success and they had not been very receptive towards my style. So is this suppose to be a proposal for me to change or a threat that I am destined for failure if I continue? 

Maybe he did not noticed that the entire team had not been well accepted by others and his style of management had draw questions marks from others as well. Overly protective and the guys are not performing. So is his style suppose to be better and I should follows?

Conclusion... Don't think I can work with him for too long liow.

What have I got myself into???

Hahaha.... having gone MIA for the last half a week, I returned to office and 'hope" (translate in hokkien) onto some bonus:p

Came to Batam, with 3 vessels assigned to me only yesterday but of cos, over the last 1 week, I noticed there had been some corresponds and one of my guy is overseeing the progress and development of the maintenance. Even in the meeting with the bosses today, it was highlighted to me the importance of some visit that will be taking place tomorrow and now...Upon arrival at the yard this afternoon, then I realizes I'm in for a shock!!! Big shock. Things that are not suppose to go wrong, has totally gone wrong!!! Things that I tot is the bare minimum requirement is not even up to my standard!!! What more can I said??? Hahah... wonder how would the prospective think when they see it tomorrow. 

Even the yard project manager "warn" me and prep for some firing tomorrow liow. Hahaha... Great jobs lah!!!

Looking on the bright side, just checked in to the apartment, not a bad place. So at least can find comfort tonight before the firing tomorrow:p Hahaha....

Internal view... cosy and relaxing

A view from outside of the room...

Excited or Dread it???

Hahah.... woke up super early today, about 5am. Since I had already packed my stuff last nite, so why exactly do I wake up so early this morning??? Maybe I'm all excited about this Batam trip. A Do or Die mission, a bargaining chip against some one or a platform to show what I can do? Hahah... gila lah:)

I am somehow looking forward to this trp as I could take the opportunity to look a the number of vessels and its development. Spending the minimum period of days on site and able to see maximum number of vessels in one go. Especially for one particular new building progress since that will becomes my baby upon timely delivery.... if it indeed timely delivered:p

BUT I do dread it as well cos sort of knowing what type of shit to expect and what had been undone though the vessels had been there all these while. The guys whom had always been MIA-ing, claiming they are onboard preparing them, beautify them but yet I expect no significant things been done. Hope they prove me wrong.

Now standing by to proceed to office for the Ops Meeting... in a semi blind condition:P

Monday Blues

A new week, new objectives, new deadlines but the same old stress:p hahah...

Since 2 days ago, send out a mail to my guys, instructed the boys to submit their defect list according to the template and told them about the intended meeting in the morning and guess what...

The entire team is not in office today, including my direct boss. Apparently, everyone is out onboard the vessel though I seriously wonder why???:p Sigh... what a start of the new era. Even the direct boss also indicate everyone is busy so could not attend. Can't these guys plan ahead?

Then nobody even bothers to indicate in the movement board so when I ask the admin gal, she has no idea where is everyone. I have to call up individual to find out their location. WTF is this??? 

Luckily, the supposed Ops  Meeting had been postponed since my entire team is gone and me not able to answer for them loh:p Well, while I tried to consolidate the data and my guy whom had provided the data is not accurate at all!!! I mean when I asked for defects they replied nothing. But what I got from one particular vessel, send to me 9 pages of shitty stuffs. Hahaha... so now, when I questioned that fellow, he just comes up with some nonsensical, weird answers. Nothing relate to my questions in the first place. 

Hahaha... I sense tough days ahead... for me & for them as well.

Super Sunday

Not sure what special it is today but so happened to meet up a lot of people from various places.

Woke up pretty early today, so once again did some simple house chores before proceed to 四马路，观音庙 for 拜拜, maybe me just wanna find some peace and comfort in my mind. After the 拜拜 session, me happen to see a poly friend of mine there too, Simon. It had been a long while since I last seen him and must said, he had been working out pretty well. To think that last time, when I started the gym thingy, he used to "envy" my built. Now is the other way round. Hahaha.... Currently working in a offshore coy, he may be just about to be posted to Brazil for new assignment. Thinking hard about it since he did not want to leave his mum alone here. Hope he made a right choice eventually.

After the 拜拜, me then went jalan jalan & shopping at Marina Sq. While hanging around at the F1 promotion kiosk, apart from looking at the race car that is on exhibition there, me also managed to chat up with a promotional temp gal there too:p Too bad, did not get her name:p heehee... So coincidentally, me saw my ex-boss there, Keith, there too. What a pleasant surprise that he & his wife could still remember me & my wife name. Chat up with him a bit bit and see that he sure has a BIG family now, I think, 5 kids:) But sadly, he commented I seem to have put on a bit bit of weight liow. Hahaha.... it a sign. A sign to tell me to go gym fast and get rid of these extra pounds round my waist:p

After the day of shopping in town, then proceed to move over to Hougang. Tot of trying my luck but too bad no luck after checking out the result just now:p Back to this late afternoon, just when I was about to cross the road, me bump into the sisters:p But could not chat up much with them and also, maybe upset wifey cos of my unexpected appearance. Any way, only know they suppose to go over to M1 to change the iphone that is giving my wifey some frustration lately. Hope she would gets a good one this time round:p

Ended my day with a unhealthy dinner, from the 煮炒 stall downstairs. The two stuff I ordered, in particular, the 正宗福建炒面, taste almost similar to the one I had in KL few years back. The taste is nice is of cos equate to unhealthy food:p When I mentioned unhealthy cos it full of pork lards and salt:p While I would try something else next time, but just have to remind myself not too often. Too unhealthy liow:p

Sat Nite

Had not been the best Sat nite. In fact, it sort of a struggle for me, especially I am happy to see wifey do have program of herself. I running out of ideas of what to do about it liow. Apart from doing some simple house chores that keeps me occupied, I really no idea what else. They told me I need to start getting use to it as this sort of stuff will last for a while. 

But at least I had achieved something for the Sat nite.... I have managed to zzz for 6 hours last night, although I did woke up once in a while thru the nite:) Not too bad liow.

Another thing I had achieved for the week.... the crash diet might just had gotten me to lost a few pounds:p AA is wondering if I can start fit into my old pants? I sure hope so:)

环岛追追追。。。

Last night, or rather this morning, it feels like a 环岛追追追 for me:p 

After my 2nd round of drinking session with my friends, me is ready to go back to my place. While I am still struggling to keep myself awake talking to the cab uncle, me was happily sms-ing away, although no immediate reply. (of cos lah, 4+am not everyone would be awake mah:p) But suddenly, realized I dun have my house keys with me, so how???? Hahaha...

Bopain, have to give a call to wifey to "wake" her up and intend to get the key from her instead. On the excuse to send her the cheese tarts but no answer:p Gotta try my luck again since she had replied my earlier sms liow. But to my surprise, she is still awake. Talking to her friend at her place. I guess, after seeing her, I forgot my reason why I came over to look for her. End up I have only passed her the cheese tarts and got chased away. heehee.. 

Now, I am in trouble. What's next??? It 4+am and no house to enter to. I proceed down to my friend's place who stays at the other end of the island. But since it still too early and not right to call my friend up, so I just proceed on over there while sms-ed her of my keys:p No response even after I arrived at her place so just have to quietly stays over in the park near her place till she replies. Nearly feels like an 无业游民:p

Luckily, it is only 6+ place when I received her response so the suffering isn't that bad. But a night out of the house, is damn sianz:p Hahaha.... must rem to have the keys with me all the time. 

Special Number

Looking back the years, I realized the number "13" had been a very special number to me. It reflects a lot of happening in my life. 

It gives me the happiest moment of my life and at the same time, it brings me down to the lowest point of my life.

It gives me the first heart felt warmth for a place I called home with my special someone and a number I will rem it as it belongs to this special someone.

How many more pleasant #13 will I goes through and how many more terrible #13 I have to endure?

Is this a lucky number for me? Or a curse number for me?

New Update

After a long long long absence, me is back to blogging again. The whole idea of how this blog started had somehow diverted a bit bit over the last 3 years. However, the very first aim when I started this blog, will once again kick off again. 

This will be a blog where I will update all my happening. What going on in my life. What is the ups & hopefully no down:p It will provides an insight some of my thoughts of the happening and possibly share with someone, and hopefully, they can comments to me as well.

Consider this will be the first blog update for the many more to comes and hopefully I can once again kick start the habit of blogging:p

Back again...

It been exactly one month since I updated my blog. Not that I am lazy to update but it a month of happening that I just tot might as well summary in one entry, in one word... SUCKS!!!!

Things had not been positive in all fronts, nothing seems to go the way I would love to. Main cast for the month, GB. Their repeated failures on various ladies had resulted me going thru a pretty shitty period. Everyday, would just spends the entire day trying recover it.

Then movement of personnel, one of my twin is leaving and not like this is not expected. Then the new guy that suppose to come, also cannot make it liow. The latter case, imo, it just his BS that his coy dun release him but it more like he is using us to get higher package from his current coy. So much bout integrity!!! So now instead of 1 incoming, I end up with 2 outgoing and when both happens on the same time, it really uncalled for.

Then something else din goes in the right direction. Instead of going downward, over the last 30 days, almost everyday, it either maintain at a high or escalating up a bit bit constantly. Had tried various corrective and preventive measure but somehow it not working yet. Then on the average, me zzz bout 4-5 hrs only, so this isn't helping either.

Basically, it a month of happening and it not the positives ones. The only consolation is having to chat with some frnds on daily basis, keeping me distracted from the shit I am going thru. Sharing with them some of my frustrations, in various aspects.

Meanwhile, will just continue to endure as I have a new target to look forward to in a few months time:)

Weird nights

Over the last 3 nights, I got the weirdest routine... As far as my memory recalls, this is the first time I dream for 3 nights in a row and somehow, all these are not related nor link with each other.

1st night, Sunday
Dreamt of myself, wif wifey went to some function at a seaside bungalow (or clubhouse). Somehow, mid way thru the function, I heard a crack and follow on, one of the pillar gives way. Immediately, I rushed out from the bungalow, carried up wifey in my arms (cos she almost fainted and jelly legs:p), and we managed to get out of the place fast enough and standing outside, witnessing the collapse of the house.

Woke up from this dream and it was like only 4+am. Did not manage to zzz after that.

2nd night, Monday
Dreamt of myself walking in a pretty spacious landed property, late at night. No idea whose house is that and it has those pretty nice full length windows. While walking around the house, I just proceed to go into the various bedrooms (since the doors are not close) and found my various family members sleeping in there. When I entered into my sis room, seeing her sound asleep in there, I suddenly heard some things flying around. Suspect it might be a bat, roaming around in her room. So I just go on swing my hands and shun off that "flying object"

Woke up at this point and it is only 2+am. Had a hard time going back to zzz, only at 5+ and wake up at 6+ again.

3rd night, Tuesday
Dream of myself meeting up a frnd of mine, together with his wife. After met up at some place, we went over to a fabric shop, where his wife intro me to a frnd of her. A nice pretty looking young lady (no idea who is that), hahaha... so instead of waiting for me, both my frnd and his wife went off and left me alone there. So I just happily flirting with the girl and actually, I got into her good book:p The happy chatting and exchanging of email address (which I have forgotten liow), we were just about to make plans to go out for dinner rather than waiting for my frnd to return.

Woke up now at 5+am:(

Of the 3 dreams above, I called my mum for some 4D idea only at the 1st dream but sadly, leading to no where. Maybe I should ask more about the 2nd and 3rd dream. Or maybe I shall wait for tonight, if I gonna have any more dream:)

And so... who is able to help me 解梦 ???

My interesting Sat Nite

Wifey always says tat I could not multitask while watching live footie game. And I have found out I can liow cos me is able to chat with friend while watching live game on tv. BUT of cos, the chat gotta involves footie too:p We basically were chatting the proceeding of the game, sort of like a real time commentary between the 2 of us. Hahaha.... We even got into this half time analysis and tcss bout those players and stuffs. Kinda funny & weird things to do though. But considering I am watching alone and his wife isn't a big fan of footie, so we sort of shared a common avenue of discussion:)

Apart from footie, there is a new subject tonite; Wife:) this were his interesting "objective" observations...

Wifey expectation towards hubby~~
1. Wife shld be ranked the most importance in the heart of the hubby. YET hubby should understand wifey commitment to her family is important so may at time hubby ranked after her family.

2. When wifey sms or msg to hubby, instance or minimum delayed response from hubby is required (this include skype/msn). BUT if wifey could not response soon that is because wifey is busy wif more important things and not available immediately.

3. Money spend should be prioritize on items that is beneficial to either family or house. BUT things that wifey buy for self is important in other aspect where hubby may not understand.

4. Hubby shld at times accept changes and adapt. Wifey.... not ready or necessary to change, happy in comfort zone. Not moving anywhere.

5. Hubby shld learn to accept that they may not the best in whatever they do when they were compared. BUT hubby shld not compare wifey wif anyone but consider whatever wifey did is always the best way in doing it.

Hahaha... I got a friend who sure has a lot of grudges against married woman.

Abuse of resources...

A bit of background, due to the distance from office, this particular individual gets to have a personalize driver to pick up to/fro office. Since they arrive early at 7+, so they leave by 5pm, not a minute late. Maybe a special arrangement agreed by boss??? No idea.

So since I got a gal who stays near that pax place, so I had to arrange my gal to walk over there to be pick up as well. (Which I still cannot understand why that pax cannot arrange the driver to make a detour of 400m away?). There was once I was questioned why I employed someone stays so far away??? What sort of question is this?

Anyway, this is a series of sms tonight...

Tat pax...
"Please be informed that I will be going on leave, please inform J**** that she will have to arrange her own transport to office in the morning"

Me...
"Since you are away, we can arrange J**** to continue to go over to your place for the pick up by the driver, so there is no need for him to take detour"

Tat pax...
"No driver will not come to Dubai for any pick up, which was clearly informed to you earlier that when I am on leave she takes care of her transport, that is why I do not want too much entertainment."

Me...
"Ok, noted. So that driver is especially for you only when you around."

Tat pax...
"Yes right!"

So much about professionalism. Why can't I tag along with this existing office resources since it had been abused by this particular individual? Isn't this a very selfish, unprofessional way to do things???

IB again

The IB in office is getting on my nerves again. I got an oversea colleague who came here to assist me in certain task so currently staying in his friend's apartment. Somewhere relatively near to where one of the two driver is staying. Until 2 days ago, this particular ID had been assisting to pick up my oversea colleague. Without any given valid reasons, he had stopped doing so. Was told that it becomes inconvenient, out of the way, blar blar blar...

Interestingly, all these bullshit took place only shortly after one of my colleague need to return to Indonesia. Not trying to speculate anything, but since this ID starts to report back to the IB and this bullshit starts. Pure coincident?

Calling the ID to revert back to the previous practice but giving bullshit excuses of this & that. And even come to a point that I have to ask the IB for permission? What shit is this?

Bopain, for the sake of my oversea colleague, I called tat pax. Hearing all her bullshit and machine gun like rattling non-stop. Still not giving me a firm reply even at the end of the call, wonder what is the pax trying to drive at???

Throughout the call, (which I had deliberately put on speakers, with a number of listener as well), we are all amazed by the nonsensical argument (all sort of bullshit "reasoning" like ID had moved house, which of cos not true), groundless accusation (claimed that I had shouted at the ID) and interesting threat (paying back to me in "interest" for what I did to her previously, shouting at her).

Personally, I just feels that this bloody IB just trying to feel the POWER!!! Tis pax is simply power crazy. Wanting to be in command with all sort of stuffs (trivial & unnecessary, non objective stuff). Wanting to feel the authority to push people around. Wanting to feel the power to tell ppl what to do.

Just another crazy IB!!!:)

Feel so pampered:)

Courtesy from my colleague...It may just be a simple gesture but it certainly makes my day, especially in this dreadful environment:)

THANXXXXX!!!!

Maybe....

Recalled back in one of my previous working place, where all the corresponds are done thru email. It is also common to see words of war flying to & fro. So since then, I had tried not to get into all these time wasting, resources wastage and ineffective, inefficient way to deal with matters. Most of the time, I would prefer to deal with the person directly, possibly face to face. Of cos, that doesn't mean email is not necessary, to keep as "black & white". Especially dealing with certain group of ppl, I am aware such "black & white" would at time turns critical.

Recently, one of my colleague (or should I consider him as my guy) had been getting on my nerves. Knowing his background, I have known long ago the importance of email saka "black & white" when dealing with him. Over the past few months, this fellow had clearly demonstrated this aspect of his "talent" and simply been using email to rebut various issues.

I have been very patient all these while. Whenever he shoot those mails, trying to correct me or trying to belittle me, I have made a more gentleman approach. In some of his mails, just clearly illustrate his ignorance and the wrong side of his attitude. But all these while, I have been telling him in a nice way on how things can be done, spoonfeeding him as some would says.

While I appreciate constructive suggestion and I would dare says that I am ever ready to accept any of these proposals. BUT this fellow simply just don't get it!!! And tonight, this fellow had once again tried his nonsense and I had enough with all his bullshit. So instead of been nice once more, I chose to shoot him down. Critical in my comments on his approach, citing his lack of knowledge, indicate his error & mistake, lastly what he need to do immediately to improve before he gets arse kicking session from me.

At times, I just feels tat this young punk simply thought he knows all, living within his own world, oblivious to the surrounding. And not objective in his approach!!! A kid that still have a long way to go. But after this mail, I guess I will have more nonsense from him in future.

Maybe... just maybe, I should revert back to how I manage my guys back in the previous company, treating them like a kid since they do not know much about initiative? Hahah... this is an insult to him if I really need to do that:p

Depression or Pampering???

Tonite... without any apparent reason, I just went over to Dubai Mall, spending near100AED for a fast food burger meal and another 150AED for some chocolates.

Wifey is concern if it due to depression? Or was it me pampering myself??? Honestly, me have no idea either:p

Miss out!!!

This is what I missed out for the CNY Reunion Makan!!! This poorly taken photo courtesy from my sibling whom I suspect have a very shaky hands

Something to think about...

It 4am in Sg now, and in another 20hrs time, it Chinese New Year, and it so happen that this year, it coincide with Valentine Day:)

Another year of CNY & VD, yet another year without celebration wif wifey. Wonder how she feels:p Personally, me do feels that this is not healthy as the percentile of us being able to do things together on these special days are sliding down the bar further.

We have a choice but we chose to enter into this rat race, in the context of working for our future. However, interestingly 2 of my frnds I chat with, told me it high time for me to take a step back and re-look the priority in life:) Both feels that I am currently brewing a recipe of trouble, heartache & downfall, possibly due to my characters or "devotion". Something I should be able to avoid, at least for now. Career though it important but there are some other important things too. We don't married to career but we are married to another pax:)

Not like I never think about it before but the chat with them did somehow push me towards that thought even deeper into myself.

What do I want?
What I can afford to lose?
What I can't afford to lose?

男人女人

男人与女人在不同年次所追求对象的条件。。。

16-25歲
女人 : 26歲至29歲的有事業基礎, 有品位, 有才華的男人
男人 : 20歲至24歲的漂亮, 有身段的女人

25-30歲
女人 : 堅持要比自己大的人
男人 : 20歲至24歲的漂亮, 有身段的女人

30-40歲
女人 : 心靈契合的男人
男人 : 20歲至24歲的漂亮, 有身段的女人

40-50歲
女人 : 男人
男人 : 20歲至24歲的漂亮, 有身段的女人

50-60歲
女人 : 能和她終老的男人
男人 : 20歲至24歲的漂亮, 有身段的女人

60-70歲
女人 : 和他在一起, 需要自己照顧的男人
男人 : 20歲至24歲的漂亮, 有身段的女人

70-80歲
女人 : 和他在一起, 不需要自己照顧的男人
男人 : 20歲至24歲的漂亮, 有身段的女人

80-90歲
女人 : 死在自己後面的男人
男人 : 我雖然已經老眼昏花. 不過我還是希望20歲至24歲的漂亮, 有身段的女人

結論 : 男人是專一的, 女人是花心的